Sia fatta la (vostra) volontà
Like every Friday, the third hour, I devote myself to the receipt of the parents. Here comes the mother of Geneva and almost moves me, asking me, as if it were up to me, do not leave this school, and then her daughter, that found in the philosophy of reason and reflection stimulus. That's great, these things make me forget all the discomfort that I have wrapped, the network of concern when I left seized, many of which cleverly built with my own hands. It 's a mom I like to talk, sincere, helpful, willing to listen and compare, and especially glad that gender issues are finally citizenship in a school where women speak very little, despite the marked feminization of teachers. He tells me he has seen "We want roses too" with his daughter and her husband and thanked me for talking in class, adding that Geneva has a strong desire to leave da questo paese e di studiare all'estero.
Cominciamo a parlare di politica e scopro che alcuni ragazzi si lamentano della mia scarsa neutralità, richiamandomi a riflettere su una questione a cui spesso sfuggo e mi sottraggo, per non trovarmi costretta a cambiare atteggiamento, cosa che so non mi riuscirebbe. Incapace a non espormi, ho scelto la sincerità, convinta che i miei studenti debbano sapere il mio punto di vista, per non restare erroneamente abbagliati da una falsa neutralità. Convinta che sarebbe estremamente scorretto passare le mie interpretazioni dei fatti come il modo naturale, oggettivo ed ovvio di leggere le cose, preferisco prendere posizione ed espormi, magari condannandomi a dibattiti estenuanti. Forse mi sbaglio, e penso alla lesson this morning on the Counter-Reformation and the Council of Trent, I think my words on that 'obstinate heretic, "that Giordano Bruno," abrugiato live "in a Roman piazza, while the cultural debate in Britain was about to give the masterpieces of the seventeenth century. I wonder whether or not wrong and I realize now face to face with myself, that my effort was not only the will to make them understand the past, but also the attempt to translate them, with the lens of history, so many incomprehensible things of our country, so barbaric, so unenlightened, so violent, so arrogant, so arrogant. I feel that I can not do so, than trying to open a hole in their heads lobotomized by years of Berlusconi, to give a sense of dignity to my work, to defend myself from this ostentatious arrogance. Maybe I'm past the ditch that separates me from them, maybe I'm abandoning the neutral impartiality that should characterize my work, maybe I'm giving tasks that I did not. So their making, that are tearing me the right to choose, they are seizing my freedom of choice, which are becoming a part morality, quite questionable, in general will that Rousseau is the basis of
laws? It is they who brought me into the war, forcing me to abandon the peaceful silence of my conscience, because this has taken place, took away dignity, took away the meaning. I hope it goes really Geneva, who has the strength to leave this sea, this beautiful lagoon, perhaps to shut themselves up in the cold and gray of a European city, but where it is free to choose, even how to die.
Friday, March 27, 2009
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Causes Of An Enlarged Heart
Voce del verbo "pienare"
All those who know me well know that. They know how in love with my students, how great is the love that binds me to them, the better at the more listless. They are, for better or worse, they are my boys. And as we adults like to complain about them, with the usual phrases like "there are more young than once," they always surprise us and prove better than silly simplification wants us to believe. Surprise us, even here, for better or for worse. The day of the funeral of my mother just got out of that church took me in the hospital of Grosseto, my eyes, as if hypnotized by that coffin from the hearse and I knew to be his, immediately moved to them, without knowing my mother, nor ever having seen, have digested two hundred kilometers to come and give her a final farewell and give me a sincere hug. Back in school I thanked them for their sincere and deep sympathy, and that of the bodies of thought, less immediate but no less profound. I understand that this was a time when the fence needed of roles in which each of us is always caged should crumble under the weight of feelings and where, finally free, take a breath and voice to the unsaid. So my "babies" as I call them love, they sweetened the most painful day of my life, so my students, with their presence and their proximity, were stitches to a deep wound and their genuine affection is still a balm that soothes and reassures, which warms and supports, perhaps the most effective drug for pain like this.
always surprises, for better or for worse. Disconcerting at times with their inherent inability of the merger, with their lack of cooperation with their difficulties you know when it's time to give something, instead of star always there to take as octopuses. Amaze us with their cries, with their constant "prof. can move the question? ", with their yawning, with that load of breath of nicotine, with those delays continue, with the chronic fear in the face of any test. We must get used to it, if you want to survive. My "babies" are well (and sometimes I think that some of them, with parents who find themselves, are too well ....).
surprising, as this morning. Register, once again, their complete inability to listen to classmates' questions, a sign of very low cunning and intelligence, because I, like all other teachers, I always repeat the usual questions, replicated so many times that even the mosquitoes of the lagoon of Orbetello know the process of the Hegelian dialectic. Oh well, did not enter into his head ...." there's no way ", as they say. They're hanging out on benches, chewing sweets, to roll a cigarette (speriamo. ...) to pause next to copy the version of greek, grumbling among themselves. And then, as this morning, we leave these wonderful childhood regression and back, unconscious, in the fifth grade, in a gray area, and indefinite that you, poor teacher, you do not understand if you're dealing with adults or brutalized with cavemen . So This morning my kids second, four girls and I wondered about Galileo and Descartes, were eclipsed, you are mentally away from class, and Carlo Maria, Samuel, Simon, and Carlo Alberto (well, always the "magnificent four") were made to make the balls of paper to pull the casing of the pen bic, surpassing ability to aim the target. And those balls, ably directed and down miraculously from the collar to your back,
going to slip in sweater Carlo Maria who, after ten minutes of "Battle of the blowgun," began to be impatient for this to show signs of undue violence and outbursts , moving convulsively on the bench, scratching at a steady pace, panting to his companions. Tired of this continual murmur, I began to raise his voice, silence to ask, to demand respect for the fellow asked. So Carlo Maria, in the clumsy attempt to justify his lack of discipline, looked at me with pleading eyes forgiveness and said: "I know, sorry prof. but I have full sweater Pippola. "Full": the verb "full". Oh God I feel sick.
All those who know me well know that. They know how in love with my students, how great is the love that binds me to them, the better at the more listless. They are, for better or worse, they are my boys. And as we adults like to complain about them, with the usual phrases like "there are more young than once," they always surprise us and prove better than silly simplification wants us to believe. Surprise us, even here, for better or for worse. The day of the funeral of my mother just got out of that church took me in the hospital of Grosseto, my eyes, as if hypnotized by that coffin from the hearse and I knew to be his, immediately moved to them, without knowing my mother, nor ever having seen, have digested two hundred kilometers to come and give her a final farewell and give me a sincere hug. Back in school I thanked them for their sincere and deep sympathy, and that of the bodies of thought, less immediate but no less profound. I understand that this was a time when the fence needed of roles in which each of us is always caged should crumble under the weight of feelings and where, finally free, take a breath and voice to the unsaid. So my "babies" as I call them love, they sweetened the most painful day of my life, so my students, with their presence and their proximity, were stitches to a deep wound and their genuine affection is still a balm that soothes and reassures, which warms and supports, perhaps the most effective drug for pain like this.
always surprises, for better or for worse. Disconcerting at times with their inherent inability of the merger, with their lack of cooperation with their difficulties you know when it's time to give something, instead of star always there to take as octopuses. Amaze us with their cries, with their constant "prof. can move the question? ", with their yawning, with that load of breath of nicotine, with those delays continue, with the chronic fear in the face of any test. We must get used to it, if you want to survive. My "babies" are well (and sometimes I think that some of them, with parents who find themselves, are too well ....).
surprising, as this morning. Register, once again, their complete inability to listen to classmates' questions, a sign of very low cunning and intelligence, because I, like all other teachers, I always repeat the usual questions, replicated so many times that even the mosquitoes of the lagoon of Orbetello know the process of the Hegelian dialectic. Oh well, did not enter into his head ...." there's no way ", as they say. They're hanging out on benches, chewing sweets, to roll a cigarette (speriamo. ...) to pause next to copy the version of greek, grumbling among themselves. And then, as this morning, we leave these wonderful childhood regression and back, unconscious, in the fifth grade, in a gray area, and indefinite that you, poor teacher, you do not understand if you're dealing with adults or brutalized with cavemen . So This morning my kids second, four girls and I wondered about Galileo and Descartes, were eclipsed, you are mentally away from class, and Carlo Maria, Samuel, Simon, and Carlo Alberto (well, always the "magnificent four") were made to make the balls of paper to pull the casing of the pen bic, surpassing ability to aim the target. And those balls, ably directed and down miraculously from the collar to your back,
going to slip in sweater Carlo Maria who, after ten minutes of "Battle of the blowgun," began to be impatient for this to show signs of undue violence and outbursts , moving convulsively on the bench, scratching at a steady pace, panting to his companions. Tired of this continual murmur, I began to raise his voice, silence to ask, to demand respect for the fellow asked. So Carlo Maria, in the clumsy attempt to justify his lack of discipline, looked at me with pleading eyes forgiveness and said: "I know, sorry prof. but I have full sweater Pippola. "Full": the verb "full". Oh God I feel sick.
Sunday, March 8, 2009
Home Built Trailer Ontario
Il 9 marzo
I let myself get drunk from molasses on the recurrence of words today. There is much talk about women on March 8, they all rincorrono nella valorizzazione delle potenzialità femminili, sulla nostra forza e capacità, sulla ricchezza delle nostre esperienze singole e collettive. La mattina però, di tutti i santi giorni dell'anno scolastico, mi sforzo di far percepire alle mie alunne di quanto sia difficile vivere in un mondo fatto e pensato da – e per – gli uomini, liberarsi dalle ragnatele dei loro significati e significanti, di quanto sia erta la salita alla realizzazione in un paese come questo, dove gli spazi pubblici sono monopolizzati dalla loro invadente presenza. Ogni volta vivo titanici sforzi a far comprendere loro come il problema della violenza, che perennemente pesa come una spada di Damocle sui loro/nostri corpi, sia il frutto di una cultura maschilista that violates the integrity of our women, nailed to an ontology biological, to a fate determined by the functional anatomy of approaches to power down to a bundle of flesh and nerves around a crack. And every time you find yourself terribly unnerving to talk to them only the best boobs, the best mini-skirt, the shoes most daring in view of a possible seduction. Tonight hordes of women flocked to pizzerias, restaurants and goliardic, replicating the worst of the worst of Italian machismo, the result of the approval offend our dignity and our outrage differenza.Oggi, for this feast, dead tired after a weekend of Pisa, I taste for the second (or third? Non l'ho visto anche con Riccardo???) quel gioiello di “Vogliamo anche le rose” di Alina Marazzi, davvero un bel film documentario da vedere (e rivedere), soprattutto per chi, come noi bambine degli anni Settanta, è spesso vittima di una pericolosa amnesia su quegli anni di lotte e trasformazioni, imbambolate dall'individualismo degli anni Ottanta che sembrava aver liquidato (nel DriveIn e simili???) il senso trasformativo degli anni precedenti. Proprio un bel film, da vedere con attenzione e impegno, per ricostruire un legame con un passato che ci appartiene, nonostante l'oblio. Forse un po' pesante per i i miei ragazzi e le mie ragazze, a cui ho consigliato di vederlo durante un'assemblea di istituto: dicono che hanno struggled to navigate between the three journals and the three stories that make up the backbone of the work, but they also say that it was to spur further thought and violent arguments. So I think the girls of my generation, so we believe that the women had already said everything there was to say and that their efforts had left on the ground only a pile of ashes after a huge fire. It also reflected Barbara teenager, whose political culture, as early and steadfast, never welded with that in the future would have been his primary, if not exclusive, interest of women and eternal student movement women, its history, its plural and tree definition. I am reminded of the pages read a few weeks ago when, as if to renew the ranks of past discussions, I'm caught in the hands of Carla Lonzi texts, and I once again immersed, after so many years, in his words so irreverent and often cruel, capable of operating in a dissection of my feelings, fears and emotions. So it seems clear that, once again, we live enslaved to an error of perspective uncritically absorb the rules of a stronghold, social, economic and political, built only for men, and we are victims of a system of representation and means that there does not represent us. And we, after thirty years the process of radical change that has affected the lives of our mothers, siamo tornati nell'ovattato silenzio, festeggiando l'8 marzo e dimenticandoci completamente di cosa succederà il 9.
I let myself get drunk from molasses on the recurrence of words today. There is much talk about women on March 8, they all rincorrono nella valorizzazione delle potenzialità femminili, sulla nostra forza e capacità, sulla ricchezza delle nostre esperienze singole e collettive. La mattina però, di tutti i santi giorni dell'anno scolastico, mi sforzo di far percepire alle mie alunne di quanto sia difficile vivere in un mondo fatto e pensato da – e per – gli uomini, liberarsi dalle ragnatele dei loro significati e significanti, di quanto sia erta la salita alla realizzazione in un paese come questo, dove gli spazi pubblici sono monopolizzati dalla loro invadente presenza. Ogni volta vivo titanici sforzi a far comprendere loro come il problema della violenza, che perennemente pesa come una spada di Damocle sui loro/nostri corpi, sia il frutto di una cultura maschilista that violates the integrity of our women, nailed to an ontology biological, to a fate determined by the functional anatomy of approaches to power down to a bundle of flesh and nerves around a crack. And every time you find yourself terribly unnerving to talk to them only the best boobs, the best mini-skirt, the shoes most daring in view of a possible seduction. Tonight hordes of women flocked to pizzerias, restaurants and goliardic, replicating the worst of the worst of Italian machismo, the result of the approval offend our dignity and our outrage differenza.Oggi, for this feast, dead tired after a weekend of Pisa, I taste for the second (or third? Non l'ho visto anche con Riccardo???) quel gioiello di “Vogliamo anche le rose” di Alina Marazzi, davvero un bel film documentario da vedere (e rivedere), soprattutto per chi, come noi bambine degli anni Settanta, è spesso vittima di una pericolosa amnesia su quegli anni di lotte e trasformazioni, imbambolate dall'individualismo degli anni Ottanta che sembrava aver liquidato (nel DriveIn e simili???) il senso trasformativo degli anni precedenti. Proprio un bel film, da vedere con attenzione e impegno, per ricostruire un legame con un passato che ci appartiene, nonostante l'oblio. Forse un po' pesante per i i miei ragazzi e le mie ragazze, a cui ho consigliato di vederlo durante un'assemblea di istituto: dicono che hanno struggled to navigate between the three journals and the three stories that make up the backbone of the work, but they also say that it was to spur further thought and violent arguments. So I think the girls of my generation, so we believe that the women had already said everything there was to say and that their efforts had left on the ground only a pile of ashes after a huge fire. It also reflected Barbara teenager, whose political culture, as early and steadfast, never welded with that in the future would have been his primary, if not exclusive, interest of women and eternal student movement women, its history, its plural and tree definition. I am reminded of the pages read a few weeks ago when, as if to renew the ranks of past discussions, I'm caught in the hands of Carla Lonzi texts, and I once again immersed, after so many years, in his words so irreverent and often cruel, capable of operating in a dissection of my feelings, fears and emotions. So it seems clear that, once again, we live enslaved to an error of perspective uncritically absorb the rules of a stronghold, social, economic and political, built only for men, and we are victims of a system of representation and means that there does not represent us. And we, after thirty years the process of radical change that has affected the lives of our mothers, siamo tornati nell'ovattato silenzio, festeggiando l'8 marzo e dimenticandoci completamente di cosa succederà il 9.
Thursday, March 5, 2009
Affidavit Of Small Estate, Fl
Conatus sese conservandi
E' da poco passata mezzanotte e vorrei dormire. Invece sono sul letto con gli occhi sgranati e una nuova, spietata e accanita crisi di emicrania. Con la mia quasi giornaliera dose di indometacina, mi immergo tra le lenzuola appena cambiate, con la gatta in fondo al letto che ulula invece che miagolare, quasi per rimproverarmi di averla lasciata sola da stamani. Domani andrò di nuovo in macchina, consapevole di non farcela ad alzarmi alle sei per prendere il treno e già mi chiedo come farò a fare lezione con questo peso sulla testa che da giorni sembra non volermi lasciare tranquilla. Eppure, nonostante my headache, back and merciless fierce, today marks a small step. I can concentrami on the things that make me feel good, that make me smile, and try to weed that thickened lump of pain and concerns that have been able to add to the suffering for the death of my mother. I was given a healthy gathering in a room of the library, to recover strength and concentration, I let myself go to a pupil with an unusual confidence that compensates my sacrifices and rewards my efforts, I dropped a big dinner and watered by a fine wine company in hilarious, I enjoyed the trip back from Grosseto in pleasant solitude, a prey to my many thoughts. Today I was good: if I had to do the "profane," as I apostrophised my boys, Give me a nice "half past seven." Today I realized that this effort to take away too many thoughts, anger, expectations and questions is merely seeking to survive and unplug it from years of violent and acute pain and sorrow I have finally convinced that really does not make sense be harnessed in a thousand networks, enveloped by new concerns, discovered with surprising skill, Stan from a time now in Evaporative pleasant memories. It will not be that conatus sese conservandi "Spinoza was talking about the good, the instinct to preserve his own being and the preservation of himself? I hope that reflections of these days, generating painful decision, inaugurate a new love for my soul, an instinct for protection that I can not ask others if not myself, a search of shelter from unnecessary concerns that I owe to Barbara today, already so heavy. Tonight I would vomit from the pain of this headache, but I can not. Goodnight everyone.
"Stay well, reeling in nothing
keep the memories, caress the age
is a stall or a rejection of cruel and irresponsible
right to happiness
If you are there what are you? What you think and why?
do not know, not You know, we're here or away?
be all, for a moment, but inside you
have everything but not tomorrow "
Francesco Guccini, Lyric As Usual
E' da poco passata mezzanotte e vorrei dormire. Invece sono sul letto con gli occhi sgranati e una nuova, spietata e accanita crisi di emicrania. Con la mia quasi giornaliera dose di indometacina, mi immergo tra le lenzuola appena cambiate, con la gatta in fondo al letto che ulula invece che miagolare, quasi per rimproverarmi di averla lasciata sola da stamani. Domani andrò di nuovo in macchina, consapevole di non farcela ad alzarmi alle sei per prendere il treno e già mi chiedo come farò a fare lezione con questo peso sulla testa che da giorni sembra non volermi lasciare tranquilla. Eppure, nonostante my headache, back and merciless fierce, today marks a small step. I can concentrami on the things that make me feel good, that make me smile, and try to weed that thickened lump of pain and concerns that have been able to add to the suffering for the death of my mother. I was given a healthy gathering in a room of the library, to recover strength and concentration, I let myself go to a pupil with an unusual confidence that compensates my sacrifices and rewards my efforts, I dropped a big dinner and watered by a fine wine company in hilarious, I enjoyed the trip back from Grosseto in pleasant solitude, a prey to my many thoughts. Today I was good: if I had to do the "profane," as I apostrophised my boys, Give me a nice "half past seven." Today I realized that this effort to take away too many thoughts, anger, expectations and questions is merely seeking to survive and unplug it from years of violent and acute pain and sorrow I have finally convinced that really does not make sense be harnessed in a thousand networks, enveloped by new concerns, discovered with surprising skill, Stan from a time now in Evaporative pleasant memories. It will not be that conatus sese conservandi "Spinoza was talking about the good, the instinct to preserve his own being and the preservation of himself? I hope that reflections of these days, generating painful decision, inaugurate a new love for my soul, an instinct for protection that I can not ask others if not myself, a search of shelter from unnecessary concerns that I owe to Barbara today, already so heavy. Tonight I would vomit from the pain of this headache, but I can not. Goodnight everyone.
"Stay well, reeling in nothing
keep the memories, caress the age
is a stall or a rejection of cruel and irresponsible
right to happiness
If you are there what are you? What you think and why?
do not know, not You know, we're here or away?
be all, for a moment, but inside you
have everything but not tomorrow "
Francesco Guccini, Lyric As Usual
Sunday, March 1, 2009
Religious Sympahty Quotes
Che cosa me ne faccio di una macchina....
finally returns to study with renewed commitment and stable concentration. home Sunday to today, after a dinner at home with my father on a day like this, where Mom would have celebrated his sixty-first birthday. We cuddled our love, emerged strengthened from this test and I abandoned the anti-migraine diet for one day, stuffing also French fries, excellent and proven antidepressant. Emergo by two days of healthy regressions. The day Friday was really a plunge backwards into a past that sometimes I would really revive, to recover a dimension of living that we often feel the remoteness and strangeness. In a fleeting passage between two cities, my city, Pisa and Florence, have materialized in my mind the last few years: from the small apartment on the outskirts of Pisa, in those enlightened lungarni, loved and hated in the house inhabited by so much love, to cross those streets far and wide by a motor that now follows the days of a teenage cousin. Back
back accompanied by a constant and dedicated by the latest concert Francesco Guccini, enjoyed the mere thought back to those many trips dealt with spirit as a teenager. So Joan and I we made to reconstruct the map of our joints, our loves ones with those sought in solitude, to remember every moment and every lineup of songs, each bun and every encounter. And together we reflected on the violence of the time, which farcene without even realizing it, we crunched ten years with amazing speed, taking away a lot of things: dreams, projects, homes, love, mothers.
I wonder if I would be prepared to haggle this expectation adults, but most of the Registry of the heart, with a decade of reverse, I wonder how I would go back all'indistinto territory of my twenties, during my years of total dive miei studi universitari e del mio amore apparentemente incrollabile. Adesso su questa scrivania, finalmente di nuovo sommersa da fogli di appunti e libri invecchiati, lancio uno sguardo alle mie cose e indirettamente a me stessa, e penso che davvero sto facendo quello che ho sempre desiderato ed a cui sono arrivata per giri tortuosi e percorsi scoscesi. Ma penso anche che, pur di respirare di nuovo quell'entusiasmo spontaneo e quell'appassionato poter essere imbevuto di futuro, sarei davvero pronta a respirare di nuovo con affanno su quelle salite, anche solo per un attimo. Canzone di oggi: Vasco Rossi, E adesso che tocca a me
finally returns to study with renewed commitment and stable concentration. home Sunday to today, after a dinner at home with my father on a day like this, where Mom would have celebrated his sixty-first birthday. We cuddled our love, emerged strengthened from this test and I abandoned the anti-migraine diet for one day, stuffing also French fries, excellent and proven antidepressant. Emergo by two days of healthy regressions. The day Friday was really a plunge backwards into a past that sometimes I would really revive, to recover a dimension of living that we often feel the remoteness and strangeness. In a fleeting passage between two cities, my city, Pisa and Florence, have materialized in my mind the last few years: from the small apartment on the outskirts of Pisa, in those enlightened lungarni, loved and hated in the house inhabited by so much love, to cross those streets far and wide by a motor that now follows the days of a teenage cousin. Back
back accompanied by a constant and dedicated by the latest concert Francesco Guccini, enjoyed the mere thought back to those many trips dealt with spirit as a teenager. So Joan and I we made to reconstruct the map of our joints, our loves ones with those sought in solitude, to remember every moment and every lineup of songs, each bun and every encounter. And together we reflected on the violence of the time, which farcene without even realizing it, we crunched ten years with amazing speed, taking away a lot of things: dreams, projects, homes, love, mothers.
I wonder if I would be prepared to haggle this expectation adults, but most of the Registry of the heart, with a decade of reverse, I wonder how I would go back all'indistinto territory of my twenties, during my years of total dive miei studi universitari e del mio amore apparentemente incrollabile. Adesso su questa scrivania, finalmente di nuovo sommersa da fogli di appunti e libri invecchiati, lancio uno sguardo alle mie cose e indirettamente a me stessa, e penso che davvero sto facendo quello che ho sempre desiderato ed a cui sono arrivata per giri tortuosi e percorsi scoscesi. Ma penso anche che, pur di respirare di nuovo quell'entusiasmo spontaneo e quell'appassionato poter essere imbevuto di futuro, sarei davvero pronta a respirare di nuovo con affanno su quelle salite, anche solo per un attimo. Canzone di oggi: Vasco Rossi, E adesso che tocca a me
“ E adesso che sono arrivato fin qui grazie ai miei sogni
What do I do with the fact that I no longer
now my illusions
what I care about the truth
now I understand how the world
what I do with the sincerity ...
And now that I no longer have my scooter
what I do with a machine
and now that there is more
Topo Gigio
what I care about Switzerland ... "
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